Lost Almost
Photos by Gabriel Krause, Design by Eric Minella
A Story Of Lament
Personal-Experimental
10-min
16mm
© 2005
Arcata, California
Featuring CHRISTINA SWINGDLER, KACI TIPTON, LISA CARPINELLI,
JAMIE MOORE, & HEATHER LANGENDORF
Music DAVID BULLARD & ERIC MINELLA
A film by TAWNYA FOSKETT
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SYNOPSIS
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Lost in a faraway land, dancing on the fringe of society,
She fell in love with a woman who brightened the darkness….
This is her story of lament.
“In the time of the great matriarchies, it was understood that a woman would naturally be led to the underworld, guided there and therein by the powers of the deep feminine. It was considered part of her instruction, and an achievement of the highest order for her to gain this knowledge through firsthand experience…
The maiden knows she must go, knows it is part of divine rite. Although she may be fearful, she wants to go…from the beginning. Making her descent in her own way, she is transformed there, learns deep knowing there, and ascends again to the outer world.”
-Clarissa Pinkola Estes, Ph.D.
(“La Selva Subterranea” Women Who Run With The Wolves)
Director’s Note
A Personal film that uses an expressionistic style to tell its story of lament for a lover found and cherished in the underworld, and lost on the ascent. The film is led by a voice-over, which is spoken as a letter to the Lover who has been lost, and is a broad sweep of sentiment, and a confession of regret. It is also a tale of life on the fringe of society. It’s a film for those who have sought adventure and found it, along with dire straights, yet survived them. It’s for those who don’t look like they hold the secrets of their past, but have been undeniably changed because of them.
The title of “Lost Almost” was one of the nicknames used at Los Alamos by those who lived there when the bomb was being created. The film stems from when I lived in an insular, secretish environment in Japan, and so I felt it fit.